Have you seen John Leguizamo’s one man show, Ghetto Klown? At one point in the show he describes a stage in the creative process he often goes through: he writes, gets depressed, hates himself, watches porn, and masturbates… over and over again. John Leguizamo and I are the same person. I’ve been doing a lot of work lately, which leads to an increased amount of time my pants and my ankles get to hang out. I kept stumbling across the same performer; Darius Ferdynand. He is wildly attractive. He is in amazing physical shape. But, what else? His face seemed to say, “I want you to get know me, but you’ll have to seek out the answers yourself.” So, I did. I found a few interviews and I learned a great deal; Darius is from Hungary, he attended drama school and worked for some time as a professional actor and model, but found it difficult to financially support himself with that work alone. His modeling work evolved into erotic shoots, which eventually led to his work in that Adult Film Industry. Amazing! Who knew he got his start in theatre? I have had friends in the entertainment business who have considered moving to the adult film business for the same reasons, so I felt a connection with him and I wanted to know more. I found myself uninspired with the questions others were asking him, so I decided to go directly to the source and ask Mr. Ferdynand my own questions. So, I headed to The Green Room.
How have you been these days?
I’ve been fine these days. I mean I definitely shoot less recently, but at least I got more time for other projects.
Although I live in Spain, I still love to get away from the cold winter, so I was traveling a bit lately.
I understand you went to drama school and have performed in musicals, films, and commercials. What was it about the world of performance that first seduced you? (Was there a play or film that greatly inspired you? What do you love about acting?)
Yes, that’s correct. I went to drama school, because as a kid I was spending all my time making up stories, pretending to be a cartoon character or just making smiling my parents when I was telling a poem or a piggy joke.
I got inspired by anything I watched and I found it interesting and fascinating.
What I love about acting is that you can be whoever you want, you can be someone else and doing things that you’d normally wouldn’t do without consequences. I generally like things with no limit and no rules.
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Agreed, there is a bit of satisfaction in being able to live out scenarios you might not in real life, without any of the consequences.
You must receive thousands of messages from fans across the world asking for advice on coming out and with stories about how they feel inspired by you, how does that make you feel?
When I receive a message like this it feels weird, because their stories are so personal, but I feel honoured too, because they trust on my opinion, but it’s also a lot of responsibility.
I never tell anyone that “You should do this, or that” because normally I don’t know the actual man personally, and what if what I say won’t work?
So I always trying get to know the details, without being too intrusive and give more options so they can really make their own decisions without blaming someone else.
Did you have someone who helped you through your early coming out days?
In my early coming out days I was counting on my family and my close friends. I mostly got lucky with both of them. Thanks, Mom. Love you ForEver!
We’ve never met in person, but there is an energy about you that would seem to indicate you are an attentive, accommodating person, is that so? And if so, how did you come to be so? (Are you a middle child?)
Thank you, very kind of you.
I don’t know about that, I used to be very attentive and still trying to be. Honestly I lose my attention very quickly if I find something or someone boring, but I give the same chance to everyone to being interesting or entertaining.
I was the youngest child, so I had lots of attention and love, I guess that’s what I’d like to give back to the universe to have cosmic balance
Let me know if you need any volunteers, I’d really like to help out by being on the receiving end of your attention and love… I just want help out as much as I can.
When I first moved to Philadelphia on my own, I finally felt free and wanted to see and bee seen. One of the first things I did with this new found freedom was attend a circle jerk party with about 50 or 60 other guys. It was one of the most liberating and frightening experiences in my early gayhood. You’ve described yourself as somewhat of an exhibitionist, do you have a particularly memorable experience of being sexually brave early on?
Really? A circle jerk party??? Wow…I can only imagine what is that supposed to be. 🙂
Well…as a teenager though I started doing sex as the age of 14 I was having the same partners for quite a long time and was having a kind of early thoughtful, responsible and very loving sex until the age of 22.
That was the time when I started to having senseless one night stands and discovering new sexual experiences. Both times were liberating but in a different way.
Was it difficult getting used to the idea that most of your friends have probably seen you have sex? Maybe even family?
No, it wasn’t really difficult to accept the fact that most of my friends have already seen me having sex on film.
I mean I know it will probably happen, I counted on that when I have decided to get involved to the adult industry. It’s part of it. Nothing I can do.
What keeps you motivated to work hard and seek new opportunities?
I got motivated by other people who are more successful than me. I want to get my things together so I can support my family or soon start my own family and have a normal, secure, happy life.
Same! I like learning as much as I can from people who are more successful than I am. Especially as an artist trying to be artistically and financially successful.
What do you feel is the greatest struggle in your life that you’ve overcome?
I had a few, maybe the biggest was when I realised that I have to stop professional acting and focus on other things that interest me.
I can only imagine what that was like. I’m happy you are doing well for yourself today and would hope that things only get better for you.
What is love?
Love is bird, flying high passionately, singing all day, not giving a shit for everything and then loosing the control and fallen down to the earth, in pain. Then climbing up a tree and trying again with broken wings and falling feathers but with tougher spirit.
That is beautiful! I wish that could fit on my license plate!
Where do you see yourself in 10 years?
In 10 years I see myself giving you another interview for the 10th anniversary of this interview.
I like your way of thinking! Yes, let’s do that. As a matter of fact, let’s be friends.
What do you most enjoy about this thing we call life?
What I enjoy the most about life is the surprises, the unpredictable future and the several choices and variety of opportunities. Dealing with decisions and connections we make. Being able to to change or make something better.
You seem to be growing and getting better everyday and I hope you get all that your heart desires… and that we become best friends.
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